tomorrow is my last exam. some might say it's freedom. but i feel really dreadful. because freedom isn't free without having the feeling being controlled. and that feeling is the feeling whereby you have no idea what to do at all. so is it really being released to freedom?

well that's not really the point.

my dearest Clarissa mei told me on msn just now that i seem weird these days, like i sound very sian like that.

well it's not that i didn't notice it. i just don't know what's gotten over me either. since last week. i started being like that. at first i thought it was exams. but i was wrong. tomorrow is my last paper but yet i feel no joy, no excitement.

somehow it's only when i drive i feel myself. weird, but true. these days i feel so dreamy. it's like i need to drive to really get my brain to work.

what's wrong with me. why am i feeling like that.

is it me? is it something or someone affecting me?

i wish i could spend this valentine with you... but as each day pass my hopes dwindle. maybe this valentine will just be me, myself and i.